Leisure

I’m currently reading F. Scott Fitzgerald’s This Side of Paradise. It’s interesting, yet I can’t really give a reason why. It’s the story of Amory Blaine, who’s this kid from privilege, and his entire social and educational life, I guess. Kind of like the innocent version of American Psycho, except there’s no “vulgar” material.

I have a feeling I’m going to give into the hype and read Twilight. If I decide to watch the movie, I want to read it first. That’s my rule for movies. It’s also a good reason to read a new book.

Thursday

I took my second psychology exam today. Harder than the first, so I probably did worst than the first. Blah! I’ve got a philosophy test next tuesday and a statistics test next wednesday. Thank God I’m still on top of things.

I’m looking forward to tomorrow because I’m supposed to see a movie and then go to a Halloween party at church. Saw 5! I hope it doesn’t suck.

Sleep

Is it true that if you sleep on your back, your breasts will grow out sideways? I’m very concerned about this, since I don’t have much to spare! So I tend to sleep on my sides, but that makes my shoulders “slouchy”. And I heard sleeping on your sides gives you wrinkles early. So I worry when I’m on my bed, if I’m on my back OR on my side. I think this is one of the reasons I have trouble falling asleep; I keep worrying.

I had this GREAT sleeping spell for the past month. I slept like a baybay. But recently I keep thinking about the breasts problem and the wrinkles problem and they’re getting to me! I haven’t had a good night’s sleep for a while.

IKEA furniture

I’ve already visualized my room furnished with IKEA furniture. I’ve already calculated how much everything will cost. All I need is to get a damn ride! My mom keeps telling me, “Sure, we’ll go there”, but we never get around to it.

I couldn’t get any sleep last night because some drunkard was wailing in Spanish. I need thick curtains. From IKEA.

Sugar

I’m consuming way too many sweets nowadays. I think my body’s glucose level is shrinking. That may be why I’m always hungry for something sweet. Today I was tempted to buy a cupcake with OD frosting since Tsochi bought one. And when I came home there was a box of Munchkins so I immediately finished that up. I reiterate my past concerns about diabetes since it runs in the family. Oh yea, and for breakfast every morning I eat artificially-processed corn-based cereal with tons of sugar.

Today’s all about money

I finally got my check from the school, so my mom and I went to open a student checking account. Yay! It’s a good feeling that you get when you create something with your name on it. I felt good walking out of the bank. I’m waiting for a credit card now. And then I’ll start my smart shopping.

Then I met up with Thomas to check out Target end tables. On the way there, we were stopped by a sale in front of the library. These are the things I LOVE: cheap stuff! So I started looking at the clothes, and randomly picked out a jacket. It was a leather jacket from GAP. I love GAP. And it was ten bucks. I think I let out a little shriek lol. I also got This Side of Paradise and Frankenstein for like three bucks in total.

The end table I had my eye on at Target turned out to be plastic. I wanted wooden. It kind of looks like the LACK end table at IKEA, but the one at IKEA is wooden and cheaper. The whole reason I wanted to get the end table is this: one side of my room has a color scheme of brown black brown, in that order. The other side is brown white brown. I wanted a cohesive color scheme, with includes coral for the walls, but that can be later. So I found the black end table at Target, and was going to get it, but it was too heavy. I think I’ll get it tomorrow, even though it’s more expensive and plastic.

Then my mom came back from the outlet and got two bags for us. She saved a lot of money. And then my brother shook his head in disappoint and rambled on about the struggling economy and his tuition problems.

To-Do’s Update

Retake ID pic, because I look ridiculous in it

I finally did it! I had half an hour to spare before class, so I went to OASIS, inquired about “lost ID’s” when mine was in my bag the whole time, got a receipt, and took a new picture. It looks pretty gangster, I must say. I’m very happy and pleased. Since I’m a regular customer at Quickly, and you get a discount if you show a student ID, I can show my Hunter one now. I usually show my Brooklyn Tech ID. Awesome!

Find better people to hang out with. My usual hang-out people are unreliable and always seem to let me down in every possible way

Ok, I don’t need new “people”. I had a few talks with people, and we’re ok. I think I was just feeling down or bored when I wrote the previous blog.

Start on the philosophy debate. UGHHHHHHH

I started! I’m going to use John Calvin, Clarence Darrow, and Spinoza for my debate paper on determinism. My argument is that we have no free will, and that every one of our actions are already determined. The more I research for my argument, the more I’m starting to believe in it.

This line is dedicated to Ms. Nicholson; HI!

To do’s

• Retake ID pic, because I look ridiculous in it
• Take the written test for my permit, which I haven’t done due to the fact that I will look ridiculous with my short hair, like in my current ID
• Get a job, which I’ve tried doing, but always seem to fail
• Paint my room. I haven’t found a good color that would match with my furniture, or maybe I just need new furniture
• Find better people to hang out with. My usual hang-out people are unreliable and always seem to let me down in every possible way
• Start on the philosophy debate. UGHHHHHHH
• Talk to Alta Mercedes about my interest in the Psychology major

This three-day weekend is so. boring.

HI

Today was a good day. I can feel myself opening up to more people. For english, I’m in a group with girls I’m not usually in a group with. I like it. We get to share our personalities with each other, even if we only meet in class. Philosophy is also fun, even though the lectures do tend to get repetitive. I listened to my neighbor’s stomach growl for hunger and my other neighbor sneezed. I don’t think I said “Bless You”. Not good for karma, Aimee.

After class a couple of us went to Ginza(!). I like to pronounce it like a war cry, haha. I felt like the tuna roll was a culinary and financial ripoff. Yea, I said it. But it was nice getting to know “the peeps”. At the same time, I’m regretting sticking to one particular group, because I might make others feel left out. Always with the give and take. Hopefully, I set a good impression on everyone in my block, because I really do want that to happen. Once this semester’s over, I doubt I will get that chance again.

“Productive”

Today was productive and unproductive at the same time.

I went jogging, took a morning shower (which I never do), and headed out again to look for a job. I went to eSparks, which is like 10 blocks away (I walked), and saw they had a “barista wanted” sign outside. How coincidental. So I inquired within, asked for the manager. Girl at the counter asked for my resume to hand to the manager. Didn’t have it. Didn’t have one at all. So I speed walked home and typed one up and printed it out, then I walked the 10 blocks back to eSparks and handed my resume to the girl. She hesitated, then told me I should wait for the manager so I could hand it in in person. At three. The time was 11. So I went back home and waited. Read some books. Ate some cup noodles. Watched Little House on the Prarie. Remembered someone on another show saying “This ain’t Little House on the Prairie!” and frowned at the thought of how girls are so sexual these days. Which reminded me of the article I read in Time magazine about how teen girls are growing up too fast. How depressing.

So I went back to the cafe around 3 and asked the manager for the manager. She asked me my age, if I was Chinese (she’s Korean so I think she wanted a Korean girl, but I didn’t know how that question was relevant), and gave me two options for shifts: 6AM-3PM or 3PM-12AM. No negotiation. I kept asking if I could work until 8, but she wouldn’t budge. Her accent was kind of intimidating too. So I thanked her and left. I got blisters on my feet for walking so much. And I didn’t get a freaking job.

After that unfruitful visit, I moped around the house for a few hours. I didn’t want to tell my mom that I looked for a job and didn’t get one, because I didn’t want her to be all “I told you so, you’re useless”. But I eventually did tell her because we were sitting on the couch and it was awkward not talking to each other. So I brought it up.

AAHHHH and I kept checking the wikipage for updates from my group members, but nothing! I did my part, even if it’s crap. At least I did it.